This story was submitted to Kindara by Lonnisha M.
I'm originally from San Francisco California and my boy friend is from Boston. We met at a Memorial Day BBQ this year. We were extremely happy in the beginning. This changed when I found out I was pregnant. It was a complete blessing and brought much joy to our lives because I was sexually abused when I was younger and told I couldn't have children.
As time went on I did everything possible to care for myself and our child, but it wasn't our time. I had a miscarriage at 3 months and it practically destroyed our lives. I lost my job, depression took over and our relationship took a major hit. We are still hurting from losing our child, but trying to move forward. I stumbled upon Kindara while doing prevention research so we could try again.
In the beginning the chart, logging in information and if I was using the app properly was confusing, but a youtube video explaining the hearts, etc helped. Recently I started ovulating and we have tried five days in a row to get pregnant. I took a test which stated I wasn't pregnant, but our last child was produced with false negative test. So, now we are waiting to see if my period comes before testing again. Most people build their lives on college degrees and great job, but for me, having a family is the most vital and inspirational thing I can think of. I want nothing more than that. Thanks Kindara!